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Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Netham45 on January 02, 2007, 08:34:00 am

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[11:59] [12:48:02] [13:43:10] i may not wake up tomorrow
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:43:52] i cant live like this, i cant even seems to get along with my mother anymore
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:44:05] everything i say, i get accused of doing stuff i never did
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:44:21] and i always screw up things
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:17] so if i am not here tomorrow, it will be cuz i'll prbly have taken every pills/medics i can find which i got to recover from my cough and i may die in my sleep or something
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:47] so if i see you this evening (afternoon for you), it will be prbly the last time
[11:59] [12:48:03] [13:46:48] i am sry
[11:59] [12:48:04] [13:46:56] but i really cant take it anymore
[11:59] [12:48:05] [13:47:10] so farewell if i dont see you anymore

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: graywolf on January 02, 2007, 08:37:00 am

When was this? And wow that's pretty bad :(

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Netham45 on January 02, 2007, 09:05:00 am

earlier today.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: rivereye on January 02, 2007, 10:27:00 am

*rivereye

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: bfr on January 02, 2007, 10:34:00 am

Please don't go, xlibman. Just...please don't go. It's not really going to help. It's going to hurt Omnimaga, us, and anybody else who cares about you.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Netham45 on January 02, 2007, 10:34:00 am

please don't kill yourself, xlibman.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: kirbykook on January 02, 2007, 10:42:00 am

...Just look back at our suggestions from earlier...it's not worth it...

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: necro on January 02, 2007, 03:18:00 pm

sigh...kevin, work like crazy for a bit and get a small loan and get the hell out of that house. I have no idea how much an apartment costs in canada but the minimum wage there is $7.75 and if you can split the cost two ways with someone, I am sure you could afford an appartment. Just run the numbers and budget yourself.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Delnar_Ersike on January 03, 2007, 06:14:00 am

xlibman, it isn't worth it. Life is more precious than almost anything (well, maybe not your calc, but thats up to you). You've been great in the past years, try to focus on being greater in the future.

Don't go. Not just Omnimaga, but the whole calc community will miss you. Suicide is also kinda contagious, if you didn't know that...

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: dinhotheone on January 03, 2007, 12:11:00 pm

xlibman, if you look back on your great accomplishments, creating omnimaga, the illusiat series (one of my favorite calc rpg's)... you can see what an awesome person you have been. Look ahead to the future. think of all the awesome things you will acomplish. If you end your life, you are taking your future. you are taking away all things you will accomplish. Don't dwell on present problems it will only make things worse. Think about accomplishing something and do it. as long as you look to the future things will get better.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Alex on January 03, 2007, 03:51:00 pm

QuoteBegin-necro+2 Jan, 2007, 21:18-->

QUOTE (necro @ 2 Jan, 2007, 21:18)

I second that. You're a grown man dude, it's time to live your life for yourself not for the ones who harm you. Leave everything bad behind and never look back!

- Alex

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Post by: Delnar_Ersike on January 03, 2007, 04:02:00 pm

*Delnar_Ersike

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Post by: Darth Android on January 03, 2007, 05:08:00 pm

Please xlibman, I more than anyone probably knows what all you've made it though. You can make it though this. Worse has happened before, and you've gotten through it, alive and kicking.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on January 04, 2007, 01:53:00 am

atm my life is not what I would qualify as stable. I may or may not be much online in the next few days, because i need to take some time off, plus i need to get back lost sleep hours. Tuesday i felt pretty weak, and almost lost counsciousness at work a few times so much I was nervous. Back at home It took me 3 hours to fall asleep (I went to bed near 11 PM), and I woke up next morning at 10:30 AM, I never woke up that late before, usually at 8 I am up and in worst cases 9. To make things worse even if i woke up late I was feeling worse than the day before, i could barely move when I woke up. My issue between me and my mother was solved that day but there is still some stuff me and she worried about and upset about (family problems mostly), it may even come to the point where we will not even celebrate christmas/new year at all anymore, because it will be a day like each others for us, as we will have stopped any relations with any family members. While I may still feel good from time to time, things for me are not stable enough to come online on a regular basis anymore, so expect me to vanish for a few days from time to time. I am sorry for making everyone worried all the time, I didn't meant to, it's just that things aren't going well at all atm and sometimes i would just end all of it.

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Post by: Jc on January 04, 2007, 02:08:00 am

Sigh....

Good luck, xlibman. Just don't give up...

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Post by: elfprince13 on January 04, 2007, 03:55:00 am

damn kevin, i thought you said you were feeling better. get yourself a job, go camping, bum around a foreign country. see life, wake up, get yourself out of the hole that is consuming you. there are so many possibilites for your life, dont waste it. Im praying for you.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: rivereye on January 04, 2007, 04:59:00 am

very true. Live life to the fullest here. If you decide your life is dumps, your life is. Find one good thing each day and focus your life around it. If you made a big sale, then highlight that in your day. If you made a major programming breakthrough on a project, make that your highlight. Build these up, and then if you have a really bad day, just think of one of those good times and work towards that. I do that, and you don't realize how good that makes me feel, especially when you reach that goal (or even higher). Remember, your life is only in the dumps if you want it to be.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on January 04, 2007, 12:04:00 pm

QuoteBegin-elfprince13+4 Jan, 2007, 9:55-->

QUOTE (elfprince13 @ 4 Jan, 2007, 9:55)

I was actually feeling better, then bad things had to happens again

NOTE: There will still be a starcraft tournament even if I am not here much. It will have to be before tuesday though, else it will be the week after. We should start playing against each others whenever we get the time and are online at the same time though as soon as we can (it could be today), then we have better chances of finishing before everyone get busy with school again

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: rivereye on January 04, 2007, 12:52:00 pm

well, you are a little late for me and school then, but ah well.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: Netham45 on January 04, 2007, 02:43:00 pm

Im happy to see that you didn't kill yourself. :)

You had me scared there for a minute.

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: graywolf on January 04, 2007, 02:58:00 pm

Well... at least the StarCraft Tournament is still on (even though I have school then :(

Title: xlibman, don't go!
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on January 06, 2007, 03:16:00 pm

well it could be during weekends, but not necessarly everyone at once. Each ppl will play against each others whenever they have both time, but some others could play later as well. as long as its before feb 3rd