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Title: Farewell
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on July 08, 2011, 01:48:37 am

After various events and how I was treated by people I trusted before, it is becoming clear that I have no hope around here anymore. Due to my state of mind, I feel that I am a danger for the TI community, and I think people like tloz128, willrandship, Qwerty.55, Jonimus, toxic_kitten and leafiness0 were right where they said things like how I should just deal with comments such as a certain e-mail that some of you saw. Since those people are aware of how I am, but still said that, in other words this basically means that I am a worthless human being.

Because my mental issues are only going to get me more and more haters as time goes on, and that those issues will not improve over time (they have deteriorated since 2009, as I am going to mention in another topic soon), it is clear that my only way to salvage what remains of my reputation, to save the site and to protect everyone, is to go away.

While I feel welcome by a lot of people, my behavior has caused certain others to make me feel unwelcome anymore, and whenever I am around, I am just ashamed of myself.

I am sorry for the drama I have caused over the year and recently, but I am afraid I cannot promise this won't happen again in the future, so I have no hope.

After I am going to post my other topic in the spam section, which I talked about in my previous news regarding my eventual departure (http://ourl.ca/11916), this will be farewell from me.

An admin will have to announce the 3rd part of the contest on front page on July 15th, and select judges for each part. Once the contests are over, he will have to e-mail me so I know won, so I can send the contest prizes.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Juju on July 08, 2011, 01:51:45 am

This will be a sad day for Omnimaga.

Farewell DJ_O. Hope we still see you around. :'(

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: XVicarious on July 08, 2011, 01:54:06 am

I am so sorry to hear this DJ_O. I am sure I talk for a lot of people, we love you and will miss you here. You have contributed so much to the calculator community.
It is sad that some people make you feel unwelcome because of any mental issue you have. With all that you have done for us they should have much more respect for you.
We will miss you so much. I wish you well.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: AngelFish on July 08, 2011, 01:56:15 am

Quote from: DJ_O on July 08, 2011, 01:48:37 am

...I think people like tloz128, willrandship, Qwerty.55, Jonimus, toxic_kitten and leafiness0 were right where they said things like how I should just deal with comments such as a certain e-mail that some of you saw. Since those people are aware of how I am, but still said that, in other words this basically means that I am a worthless human being.

I couldn't disagree more. You've done a lot for the community and it's better off for having you. You're not worthless by any stretch of the imagination.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: leafy on July 08, 2011, 01:56:41 am

Once again, I was really not referring to DJ_O when I made those comments,

Quote

[15:23:35] <+OmnomIRC> (O)<leafiness0> why do we need to care
[15:23:36] <+OmnomIRC> (O)<leafiness0> seriously
[15:23:47] <+OmnomIRC> (O)<leafiness0> we're like frickin dragging politics onto a calc site
[15:23:48] <+OmnomIRC> (O)<leafiness0> who cares

I totally see how some people would see this as offensive, and once again I apologize to DJ_O and all who might have been offended by it. I'm really sorry DJ_O chose to leave, and this calc site is going to be much worse off without him.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: z80man on July 08, 2011, 02:07:17 am

/me cries :'(
I'll miss you pal

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: SirCmpwn on July 08, 2011, 02:20:48 am

Spoiler For DJ's Real Impact:

(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/reuben2.gif)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/reuben.gif)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/rl1.bmp)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/rl2.bmp)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/zeldass.gif)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/index.php?action=dlattach;topic=3651.0;attach=2012;image)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/axetunnel.gif)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/lobsters.gif)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/grayscaleguessinggame.gif)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/illusiatx.gif)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/illu13.gif)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/metroidII1.gif)(http://www.omnimaga.org/images/screenshots/po_rn.gif)(http://i-lost-the-ga.me/4lvrrtunnel.gif)

Spoiler For Music:

(http://www.mtv-music-generator.com/Themes/DefaultEdited/images/M2k.jpg) (http://www.mtv-music-generator.com/)
(http://lh6.ggpht.com/shaileshdoke/R7Yvft7NeXI/AAAAAAAAAR8/c-KsB1lUh3c/YouTube+Logo%5B5%5D) (http://www.youtube.com/user/DJOmnimaga)
(http://www.omnimaga.org/oldsite/omnimaga_logo.gif) (http://www.omnimaga.org/)

Spoiler For Omnimaga:

We love you, DJ_O. You aren't a danger to the community, you are one of its greatest assets. Look at all you've done. Look at the website you've raised on your shoulders. You are amazing, and we will never forget that. In my eyes, you are the best of the community, the cream of the crop, and you will be missed like no other.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Stefan Bauwens on July 08, 2011, 03:32:54 am

:'(
Goodbye...

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ralphdspam on July 08, 2011, 03:42:59 am

:'(

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Munchor on July 08, 2011, 05:11:54 am

I have to agree with Qwerty.55 and SirCmpwn here, what you made was awesome and will never be forgotten. You're the top contributor throughout the last 10 years not just when it comes to projects, but also when it comes to leading such a great community.

Farewell DJ :'( I hope to see you again :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Jim Bauwens on July 08, 2011, 06:44:54 am

DJ, I will miss you, and I hope you will visit still sometimes.

Good luck with everything else!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on July 08, 2011, 08:20:04 am

NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Dont go! Please I will email you when project M comes out j/k still come back once in a while please!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: TIfanx1999 on July 08, 2011, 08:23:14 am

As I have said before the decision is yours if you stay or go. Personally I think you have done better in recent times. You have many friends here, people that accept you for who you are, regardless of your faults. No one is perfect, we all just have to try and do the best we can. And I NEVER EVER want to hear you say you are worthless, understand? =)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on July 08, 2011, 08:26:45 am

Quote from: Art_of_camelot on July 08, 2011, 08:23:14 am

As I have said before the decision is yours if you stay or go. Personally I think you have done better in recent times. You have many friends here, people that accept you for who you are, regardless of your faults. No one is perfect, we all just have to try and do the best we can. And I NEVER EVER want to hear you say you are worthless, understand? =)

I agree,
you are more helpful than me... lol.
You made omnimaga, now THAT is not useless!

EDIT Happy 25th Birthday, Kevin.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Stefan Bauwens on July 08, 2011, 08:30:41 am

Quote from: annoyingorange on July 08, 2011, 08:26:45 am

Quote from: Art_of_camelot on July 08, 2011, 08:23:14 am
As I have said before the decision is yours if you stay or go. Personally I think you have done better in recent times. You have many friends here, people that accept you for who you are, regardless of your faults. No one is perfect, we all just have to try and do the best we can. And I NEVER EVER want to hear you say you are worthless, understand? =)
I agree,
you are more helpful than me... lol
You made omnimaga THAT is not useless

EDIT Happy 25th Birthday, Kevin

Don't want to offend you, but I think you should put a fullstop on the end of your sentences (which you many times don't). Also comma's and capital letters make a post more 'clean' and easier to understand. :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Ashbad on July 08, 2011, 08:34:36 am

You told me privately that you've been planning this for quite some time, and I guess that this is where you execute it. Over the 11 months I've been here we've gotten to know each other pretty well, and it makes me sad to see this is the end. It is your choice to do this, and I won't stop you from making this decision. Either way, I will always remain your friend and I hope after this that you better about yourself and your life goes much better :) and, trust me, you're not worthless; you're a great game developer, and even more importantly a good person. Good luck, and I hope we can keep in touch! :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Quigibo on July 08, 2011, 08:43:57 am

I'm 99% confident that he'll be back. The community loves DJ, and DJ loves the community. Sometimes it just takes time to see that and you can't see that perspective until its gone. Me and everyone else wishes you good luck and hope you return as soon as you feel you're ready. Maybe even return to programming...? :D

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Spyro543 on July 08, 2011, 08:49:23 am

I'm playing sad 8-bit right now and that doesn't help at all... :'(
DJ_O, you are the best person I have known...online or offline.
I wish you good luck again for all of your problems, online or offline.
The community loves you, DJ, and you are the best person here.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Scipi on July 08, 2011, 08:54:26 am

DJ, it sucks to see you go but as Camelot said earlier, it's your decision, though I, and everyone else here, wish you'd reconsider.

So please don't beat yourself up over this man, everyone has their faults, I don't think anyone blames you for how you reacted to certain situations because of that.

And it's not how people think of you in one case that defines you within this community, it's what people think of you overall, and I think that just the contents of this thread alone proves that you are the most loved and popular person on any calc site.

Personally, my impression of you is still the same: You are a fair individual who has good judgement and is well suited for making an epic site like this one Uber successful, and who just tends to blow up sometimes. And like I said, everyone has their faults, no one blames you for that. You were just having a rough time coping and you lashed out. And no one thinks any less of you regardless. It's not a mental problem. It's really just being human.

So, again, it's your decision though I understand if you still decide to leave. I hope you'll still be in IRC if that's the case. :'(

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Happybobjr on July 08, 2011, 09:35:21 am

DJ, almost everyone wishes you to stay. We know you have your problems, and we completely accept them and are fin with them. Problems like that have been very infrequent. None of us hate you for them, its just part of you. Might I point out that I had my parents make a program that would shut off my webbrowser if i used to many capital letters in a row? ( Oo Don't ask me how, I still haven't figured it out.) My point is that it isn't just you with problems. You have more power, so when something goes wrong, it gets more widely noticed.

This power I am speaking of is called respect. It is rarely called power, but power is what respect is. You get noticed because everything you say is of more importance to us. You make a mistake and other people are bound to notice it because we do. In a few days, issue will all be behind us and no one that truly knows you has lost any respect for you. I would bet *someone* who hasn't been here long enough to know about your personal problems has gained more respect for you.

I came into Omnimaga at the time where axe was putting in the token changes. I got angry at you because someone said your name and I jumped to conclusions. It was my first day and i sent many hateful things (publicly) to a person(you) I didn't know. I am truly sorry for the hurt I had given you for it. Many people sent me very angry, sad, upset, peeved, and any other email you can send. After reading all the letters (over 20 within an hour) I realized by the content and the quantity that I had done something very wrong. I tried to quickly remove what I had posted, but such things can never be gone quick enough. The damage was done.

I have been changed for the better by that day. I now know how great you are AND I have learned not to judge others without truly knowing who they are, and to ignore the initial actions. Please look and see that we don't think you hamper the calculator community, but give it life and spirit. No offense to Cemetech, but it doesn't feel like a home over there like it does here. We truly hate for you to go Dad.

@sir: I disagree with your "Spoiler for DJ's Real Impact" His calculator contributions and everything don't come close to the real emotional impact. You, at least I, can't convey how much he means emotionally to many of us. We don't judge him by his programs (even though they are amazing) we judge him for how much he is as a person.

DJ is a supporter, friend, leader, teammate, and much more. You have been there to help with my personal problems as well as calculator, and that is priceless.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: yunhua98 on July 08, 2011, 10:16:18 am

DJ, you go take a break. ;) Take one for as long as you want. But hopefully, we'll see you back here soon. In the meantime, we'll miss you! :'(

If You leave forever, the trolls will know they have won.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Chockosta on July 08, 2011, 10:29:00 am

I really don't understand. I'm on this forum since only one month, and I read only the programming part, so I really don't understand. What happened ?
Anyway, it's so sad. To me, you are one of the main calculator community members.
You should just take a break for a month. Then, maybe you will leave us, but I hope you will come back. But take a break. Please.

(I just hate being French, I don't find the words to say what I think)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: yunhua98 on July 08, 2011, 10:30:39 am

You can post French with an English translation. DJ speaks French, after all.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Munchor on July 08, 2011, 10:32:45 am

DJ O's Contribution:

(http://img.removedfromgame.com/imgs/dj_respect.png)

Just adding it up to what SirCmpwn already said (http://ourl.ca/11981/226200)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: yunhua98 on July 08, 2011, 10:37:46 am

http://cemetech.net/forum/viewtopic.php?p=156137

It seems even JoeYoung is apologizing. :o As merth said though, we should wait for some action first. ;)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ztrumpet on July 08, 2011, 10:40:49 am

Man... I'm crying. That's not fun. Anyways,

DJ, you're a wonderful person. I hope you decide to come back; Omnimaga will never be the same without you. I hope you know that most of Omnimaga wants you back, and those who don't haven't seen you at your full potential. I hope that if you leave that you continue to be an incredible person. I hope you stay, though, and so do many, many others. Thank you for all of the help, the inspiration, and the guidance throughout my time on Omnimaga. I'll miss you so much, and I wish you the best of luck in life! Good luck, DJ! :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Hot_Dog on July 08, 2011, 10:46:44 am

/me cries

I hope you will come back, DJ, but if you don't, we understand, and we wish the best for you. I will always be on IM if you need me, though I apologize in advance for times I am away from the computer or my stinkin internet acts up.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: TravisE on July 08, 2011, 11:24:25 am

I know I may appear at times not to care since I don't really get involved with many of these issues and haven't been around here all that much lately. However, that isn't the case. The truth is, over the last couple of years I have found myself thinking about you quite a lot, even when I'm away from the computer and doing completely unrelated things. You're free to believe and do what you want, though personally, I don't believe that it is possible for anyone to be “worthless”. It seems to me that there are still plenty of people who love and care about you, which includes me.

Through my life I've heard endless stories about people in seemingly hopeless situations like yours, but things turned around when they hung in there long enough. The way I believe things work is that if you try to at least have hope that there's even a microscopic chance of things working out, you at least leave that chance, but if you decide to banish *all* hope, you pretty much force the door closed forever.

If nothing else, just remember that regardless of what you do or think about yourself or whether you lose hope or keep it, I personally will never lose hope for you. :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: pianoman on July 08, 2011, 12:05:07 pm

:'(
Like Homer and AOC said, it's your personal choice if and when you choose to leave the community.
With that being said, we all hope you come reconsider. We all love you, and we will all miss you!
We wish you well on everything in the future, and we hope to see you around.
Good luck!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Deep Toaster on July 08, 2011, 12:27:12 pm

Quote from: SirCmpwn on July 08, 2011, 02:20:48 am

Spoiler For DJ's Real Impact:

That really puts things into perspective, doesn't it... O.O

But that's not even all of it. You've also inspired so many people to try BASIC and Axe and calculator stuff in general, and I know I wouldn't be posting here if not for you. (Obviously not on Omnimaga, but I mean I wouldn't be here on any forum if you hadn't reminded me that these things exist about fifteen months ago.) Thanks for everything you've done for the community, good luck, and hope you come back :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: fb39ca4 on July 08, 2011, 01:18:34 pm

:-\
...
:'(
I'm so sorry, DJ. I never meant for you to take that topic I made so personally, I had meant it for the whole community after I saw some retaliation going on against what others outside Omnimaga had said. I obviously do not realize how hard it is for some people to ignore a troll. I have not, do not, and will never think of you as a worthless person, I am ashamed that I made you think so. If it weren't for you, Omnimaga wouldn't be here, and the calc community would not be were it is today, which when you think about it is a huge accomplishment. Good luck in your offline life, and if you ever feel you are ready, I will welcome you back, and so will everyone else here.

Goodbye. :'(

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: the_mad_joob on July 08, 2011, 01:37:30 pm

Hey DJ,

It would be an infinite loss for the whole community if you actually leave.
But, and i precisely know what i'm talking about, being too much there for others can have its drawback.
That's why i hope nobody will judge you for that choice, since you deserve this balance, like everybody.

I intend to shutdown myself in a few months so there's a probability i don't read you anymore.
In the case both of us don't change our minds, i just can say it was an honor to have crossed your path, even if i don't know you very well.

Take care =]

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: FinaleTI on July 08, 2011, 01:37:50 pm

I'm sorry to see you go DJ.

I joined UTI shortly before the server change, and everyone disappeared. I came over here because I remembered that 2009 contest from the ticalc news, and I lurked for a while. Eventually, when I saw how active and friendly Omni was, I signed up. I only regret I didn't join sooner.

Personally, you've made a huge impact on me. I respect people who stand up for what they believe in, and I respect the fact that you believe everyone deserves respect. That is a huge part of why I like Omni so much. Also, your programs served as an inspiration for me to further explore TI-BASIC programming, which lead to my Axe programming and my discovery of my love of programming.

My sister is bipolar, and used to be picked on a lot, before we knew what the problem was. Now, we are better able to support her, and she seems a lot happier. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that being surrounded by people who care for you, as I'm sure everyone who's posted here does, as well as plenty of others do, can often make all the difference.

And as AoC and Qwerty and several other have said, you aren't worthless. No one is.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: TC01 on July 08, 2011, 02:06:41 pm

While I didn't actually join UTI, I did discover it through some link from ticalc.org news. I didn't even realize there were other calc community sites until.. well, I forget what made it happen.

UTI was very empty, so I merely lurked. The biggest discussion I can ever remember reading in my lurking days were the signing keys thread- that was it. There were a few projects, but nothing really major. I came to the conclusion that the calc community was dead.

And then I discovered Omnimaga. Here was a thriving community: as Sir said, the #1 most active calculator forum! As a result, I signed up.

I haven't really contributed much to the community in the around-a-year I've been here. But the very existence of this site made me decide to get involved at least partly, and you can take credit for that. For much of this year, I've been idling (thank you school). In the occasions where I posted in some thread or another, or got involved in a discussion on IRC, you often commented that you hoped I wasn't quitting calc programming and that I would stay involved here.

That sort of thing is a great example of the positive impact you've had in building- in founding- this community, and why I'm sorry to see you go.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ZippyDee on July 08, 2011, 04:07:01 pm

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: apcalc on July 08, 2011, 06:04:34 pm

DJ, you have made a countless number of truly wonderful contributions to the community and you have been a true friend to all in your decade of involvement. I am truly sad to see you leave now. :(

I wish you the best of luck in everything you do in the future!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: squidgetx on July 08, 2011, 07:49:47 pm

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: alberthrocks on July 08, 2011, 08:07:49 pm

DJ_O, you've been awesome. the calculator community is alive and running because of you. The calc community would have been a mere shantytown, even with the best of efforts. Now? The calc community is revived, with things that we've never dreamed of having before - modifying the boot code, a TI-Basic like language that can be truly converted to Z80 assembly, music (and now video with sound) that requires no extra RAM pages, and even some serious calc OSes! :D

Without you, this all would not exist. We would still be in the age of MirageOS (*shudders*), no Ndless 2.x, and definitely no Lua. We would still be in the age of TI-BASIC, where few decent ASMs would have existed.

Your actions - this site - changed everything.

Combined with your own programs, your impact definitely isn't a small feat.

You're not worthless. You have most of the community's respect on your side.
The only people who are worthless are blatant trolls who contribute nothing to the world, both virtually and physically. (Basement dwellers come to mind) It would be in your best interest to ignore them, just like the rest of the world does. Remember, they have absolutely no recognition or respect like you do - let them wither off to nothing.

If you were planning on leaving before this mess occurred, it's fine. People need breaks, or sometimes permanent ones if interest wanes. This is perfectly natural. However, if this was catalyzed by the trolls, you should seriously reconsider. Remember, the trolls have no say whatsoever in the community and elsewhere.

Either way, I will miss you. The community at large will too.

If you do decide to permanently leave, I wish you good luck in future life, and hope that you can visit the forums from time to time in the future.

Sincerely,
Albert

P.S. - Happy birthday from China! (祝你生日快乐!) I wrote this on my iPod, on a crappy Internet connection... :P I'll explain in 2 weeks.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Geekboy1011 on July 09, 2011, 03:05:44 pm

ive felt this day coming for almost 2 years now almost right after i got on this forum you started talking to me. i got to know you better than my family. you almost replaced the pople i love and care for. you have raised threw the ranks of what i value and treasure you have become probably the largest single role model in my life. yet even with all of this. i will and wont even try to change your descision. it is yours to make. you have done all of us a huge favor you have taught many people the proof of what sympathy and compassion can do for someone. but with being that kind of person, mental issues or not, one is subject to torture and torment as you try to help other people unconditionally more so than you trying to help your self.

leave, come back , stay away, return when life settles more. its your descision im not going to make it for you just know that im always here if you need to talk. even if its 1 2 10 even 20 years down the road remember im here for you. your have become that important to me. there is not a day that goes by that i do not think or care about you.

live your life to the fullest kevin. live it the best you can in the best way you think you can. no one else can know what is truely right for you except your self. make your decisions, change them and make new ones all we can do is watch and pray for you.

best of luck in life to you mate keep on living life even if it has to be one day at a time

From one who truely cares about you more than the world
Tim Keller

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Binder News on July 09, 2011, 06:05:49 pm

While certainly saddening, I wish you luck in whatever you decide to do, whether it be leaving, or staying. But whatever it is, you really are a great person. You have held up an entire community, and kept it safe for all people, whether they be skilled or unskilled, timely or horrible at following through, calc programmers, or computer programmers, and everything in between. While I have been here, I have started, and not finished, a number of projects, (though I am reviving The Silencer). Each and every time, you encouraged me to try, and applauded me when I reached a goal. And each time, when I announced that the project had died, you expressed sadness, but neither you, nor anybody else ever said anything disparaging or discouraging. You have made a truly wonderful and unique forum here, and I salute you. You are not, and I do not believe you will ever be a danger to the TI community, or to any other community.

Thank you for making a place where everybody can be free to do what they want to, without criticism. You have really made the world a better place.

We'll miss you DJ_O. :'(

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ruler501 on July 11, 2011, 02:48:08 pm

DJ_O it is your choice, but I think it would actually be better for the calc community if you took a break but did not leave forever I will forever be waiting for you to come back. You and a few other people in this wonderful community we call omnimaga are the reasons I still program. I was close to giving it up, but you guys showed me that it could be useful and good. I and I'm sure everyone except the most horrible trolls will miss you terribly. I hope you come back soon

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ben_g on July 12, 2011, 02:50:34 pm

I really hate to see you go. Omnimaga is the most active calc programming community, and almost all of the good programs for TI calculators are made by omnimaga users. Withouth you, the calc comunity would be dead for a looooooong time.

Could you please try to still check the site once in a while? And maybe coming back after letting it rest for some time.

We all will miss you DJ_O

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on July 28, 2011, 03:20:55 am

Hi to the forums users I did not have the chance to talk to in a while and thanks for the support.

Unfortunately due to life circumstances regarding my uncertain mental state, leaving on July 8th was pretty much necessary. In fact, two days after my departure I had one of those usual blow-ups most of you saw before and emotional breakdown, but the problem is that it occured even though absolutely nothing much wrong happened to me the two days after I left. I know some family members have issues, and that incident after I left made me fear even more that I was developing those extra mental issues. As a result, I decided to wait for a few weeks to see how I'll feel, to see if this would happen again. Finally this happened only once more, but less bad.

I will not go into details here about those mental issues from my family, but I think the reason why I had those extra periods of insanity and loss of mind were because of the loss of a great friend that occured a few weeks prior my departure, because it no longer seem to happen at that level. Also if I had what I thought I got, I would be several times worse. That said, maybe I DO have those issues, but to a much lower level than that family member.

Basically this means I cannot promise I won't blow up again in the future, and I still gotta remove myself from places at risk. However I might be able to eventually return to my former forum activity level, at the possible cost of my IRC activity. Also regardless of my activity level, I do not want to be in charge of the website anymore, so I would prefer to remain a regular member for now. I could possibly help a bit on some things like news/articles posting/editing in the future, although I do not know at which rate. As of now my work vacations are ending soon and I'll be busy next week, so there are chances that my next few posts will still only be music upload notifications.

Also it might take a while before my activity returns to its full level, if it ever does. However it could have been much worse: Had I really gotten extra mental issues adding up on my already existing ones, I would have never been able to return on the site again and I think I might have even been forced to stop working forever eventually. Now I hope I am really safe in long-terms, so I can still contribute here for a long while.

Remember that despite not having developed extra issues, I still have the ones I already had, though. We have to face the reality. I try to do my best to control my emotions but I cannot promise things like all-caps spam won't ever happen again, and I am sorry if it does.

EDIT (Wow did I really make 3 new songs since I left? I was on a roll it seems, like in 2007 or 2008)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: mrmprog on July 28, 2011, 03:41:48 am

I am very happy that you will be returning to the forum. I was very sad when you left. We all know that you are an amazing person who has achieved many great things. It s very good to have you back. Btw, I have been listening to more of your music, and it is fantastic! I didn't know that I enjoyed your style of music until I heard it on the omni radio.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on July 28, 2011, 08:39:42 am

Quote from: DJ_O on July 28, 2011, 03:20:55 am

Hi to the forums users I did not have the chance to talk to in a while and thanks for the support.

Unfortunately due to life circumstances regarding my uncertain mental state, leaving on July 8th was pretty much necessary. In fact, two days after my departure I had one of those usual blow-ups most of you saw before and emotional breakdown, but the problem is that it occured even though absolutely nothing much wrong happened to me the two days after I left. I know some family members have issues, and that incident after I left made me fear even more that I was developing those extra mental issues. As a result, I decided to wait for a few weeks to see how I'll feel, to see if this would happen again. Finally this happened only once more, but less bad.

I will not go into details here about those mental issues from my family, but I think the reason why I had those extra periods of insanity and loss of mind were because of the loss of a great friend that occured a few weeks prior my departure, because it no longer seem to happen at that level. Also if I had what I thought I got, I would be several times worse. That said, maybe I DO have those issues, but to a much lower level than that family member.

Basically this means I cannot promise I won't blow up again in the future, and I still gotta remove myself from places at risk. However I might be able to eventually return to my former forum activity level, at the possible cost of my IRC activity. Also regardless of my activity level, I do not want to be in charge of the website anymore, so I would prefer to remain a regular member for now. I could possibly help a bit on some things like news/articles posting/editing in the future, although I do not know at which rate. As of now my work vacations are ending soon and I'll be busy next week, so there are chances that my next few posts will still only be music upload notifications.

Also it might take a while before my activity returns to its full level, if it ever does. However it could have been much worse: Had I really gotten extra mental issues adding up on my already existing ones, I would have never been able to return on the site again and I think I might have even been forced to stop working forever eventually. Now I hope I am really safe in long-terms, so I can still contribute here for a long while.

Remember that despite not having developed extra issues, I still have the ones I already had, though. We have to face the reality. I try to do my best to control my emotions but I cannot promise things like all-caps spam won't ever happen again, and I am sorry if it does.

EDIT (Wow did I really make 3 new songs since I left? I was on a roll it seems, like in 2007 or 2008)

YES I conf (crieng on the floor) when you left

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Munchor on July 28, 2011, 08:40:06 am

Quote

EDIT (Wow did I really make 3 new songs since I left? I was on a roll it seems, like in 2007 or 2008)

That's your thing DJ, I hope you continue making awesome songs.

Regarding you returning, I'm with mrmprog, I hope and am looking for your returnal (does this word exist?) to the forums ;)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on July 28, 2011, 08:40:58 am

Quote from: ephan on July 28, 2011, 08:40:06 am

Quote
EDIT (Wow did I really make 3 new songs since I left? I was on a roll it seems, like in 2007 or 2008)

That's your thing DJ, I hope you continue making awesome songs.

Regarding you returning, I'm with mrmprog, I hope and am looking for your returnal (does this word exist?) to the forums ;)

and Im with Scout

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: TIfanx1999 on July 28, 2011, 08:47:11 am

Hey DJ. I'm glad that you're doing better. I'd recommend easing back into being active and see how it goes. You shouldn't feel pressured to post at your previous rate either. Your previous posting rate was astronomical! O.O At any rate, I'm glad you'll be back. =)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: ztrumpet on July 28, 2011, 10:18:08 am

Welcome back, DJ! I hope you have a great time posting again at Omnimaga. :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: yunhua98 on July 28, 2011, 10:36:06 am

I'm glad you could come back,DJ.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Stefan Bauwens on July 28, 2011, 10:59:34 am

Good to see you DJ_O.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Scipi on July 28, 2011, 12:29:42 pm

YEAH! Great to see you back DJ. I'm with all of the above members, just post how much you feel you need to post and slowly come back into things.

And if you fear another out break is coming on, don't be afraid to take some time off for yourself.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: calcdude84se on July 28, 2011, 01:28:13 pm

Yes, welcome back. :D

Quote from: HOMER-16 on July 28, 2011, 12:29:42 pm

And if you fear another out break is coming on, don't be afraid to take some time off for yourself.

I second this, too. :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Deep Toaster on July 28, 2011, 02:02:03 pm

Quote from: calcdude84se on July 28, 2011, 01:28:13 pm

Yes, welcome back. :D
Quote from: HOMER-16 on July 28, 2011, 12:29:42 pm
And if you fear another out break is coming on, don't be afraid to take some time off for yourself.
I second this, too. :)

I second the first part and third the second. Welcome back :D

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Jim Bauwens on July 28, 2011, 03:54:39 pm

:hyper:

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: squidgetx on July 28, 2011, 04:45:30 pm

W00000000000000000000TTT!! :D
welcome back

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: FinaleTI on July 28, 2011, 08:59:36 pm

Welcome back DJ!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on September 06, 2011, 10:06:42 pm

I do not like the way I was treated lately by certain people here lately, especially by some moderators (although one was permbanned for defacing the channel a while ago). Lately it seems I am not even allowed to call them or someone else out anymore without them or someone else jumping at me in rage for not handling the situation correctly or for apparently pissing them off. If I'm gonna piss people off everytime I say something and if I am not even allowed to call them out nor help without being lashed at like earlier in a private channel, I don,t see why I should even bother staying anymore.

Also to the person involved, last nigth I said that if I was accused of trying to piss him off or handling things the wrong way again, I would never contact the person again and I would leave Omni. This time has come.

I also did not like how a certain member who recently threatened to leave treated me in his last posts, despite him knowing very well I am more sensitive and not english native.

Farewell everyone.

I would like all my contributions to the site to be removed, except my posts. I will start my own calculator/music forum as soon as I have time to set one up.

EDIT: At the time he wrote this post, DJ_O was really angry and blew a fuse. He's not really the same person when he does so, so please disregard this post. He's not ready to come back yet due to his current mental condition, but he'll come back soon...

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: LincolnB on September 06, 2011, 10:18:19 pm

Oh pooh. I was afraid this was going to happen...DJ_O, we will miss you.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: mrmprog on September 06, 2011, 10:28:45 pm

You are a huge part of this community, it would not be the same without you. However, if you do not want to remain, then do not feel forced. We will always remember.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on September 06, 2011, 10:45:20 pm

What? You are leaving? Please don't!

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Juju on September 06, 2011, 10:48:18 pm

DJ it's sad to see you leave like this, but oh well... You'll always be in the community's hall of fame, after 10 years.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on September 06, 2011, 10:56:47 pm

Quote from: DJ_O on September 06, 2011, 10:06:42 pm

I will start my own calculator/music forum as soon as I have time to set one up.

Wait, you are going to make a new calculator site? Great :D !

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: mdjenkins86 on September 06, 2011, 11:02:30 pm

Hey Kevin, email me...

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Juju on September 07, 2011, 07:02:46 pm

Bump. Edited DJ_O's post.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Yeong on September 07, 2011, 07:03:39 pm

that's good to hear. I expected that :)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on September 07, 2011, 07:18:17 pm

Yay!

Title: Re: DJ_O is back
Post by: annoyingcalc on September 20, 2011, 07:24:58 pm

*bump* DJ_O is back!!!! :D :D :D :D :D O.O O.O :hyper:

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: boot2490 on September 20, 2011, 07:26:01 pm

I was almost sad that I never got to meet you on the forums, but you are back? or not. which one?

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Juju on September 20, 2011, 07:26:24 pm

Quote from: annoyingorange on September 20, 2011, 07:24:58 pm

*bump* DJ_O is back!!!! :D :D :D :D :D O.O O.O :hyper:

Not sure...

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: annoyingcalc on September 20, 2011, 07:27:20 pm

he has been leaving and returning so probably staying and you can also find him at http://cemetech.net/

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: boot2490 on September 22, 2011, 06:54:43 pm

Actually i just registered at cemetech for use of source coder.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on September 22, 2011, 09:10:17 pm

I actually had my account desactivated there (although it still exists, along with my 1000 posts) because I'm rather volatile when angry and there is one person in particular there that just wouldn't leave me alone regardless of the discussion. I took no chance, since I always had the temptation to login there to participate to discussions or chat with Kerm and a few others, which kinda sucks since it's like the 2nd calc site I visit the most.

I would probably not have done this if it was possible to turn SAX off there along with blocking certain users from sending me PMs, though. On Omni I have OmnomIRC disabled, for example, although I did not block the person in question because his Omnimaga account was deleted over a month ago.

Also just as a side note, normally farewell posts from me should not be taken for granted. The older members know that, but not the newer ones. It's often said out of anger, after several bad things happens in a row (some of which are sometimes not even related to the Internet). The only thing to worry about is that since the past 6 months or so, my activity has been dwindling, so now I'm around, but no matter if I am in the middle of a break or not, I am not so active. Sorry for any blow up that might happen. I planned to explain some stuff in a new topic at one point, but I just never feel like writing it because it requires lot of thought to write such long post, so I'm just gonna say this about my sporadic leaving/absences now. And yeah it did get worse over time, especially the last two months.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: Happybobjr on September 22, 2011, 10:39:48 pm

We know you and have learned to love you. The newer members just need time ;)

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: DJ Omnimaga on September 23, 2011, 03:18:33 am

Well an issue though is that even for some of the older members, some stuff I did wrong happened so often that it probably alienated them or made them start giving up on me, if not already done with me. The major issue that I discover more and more is that I don't even fully know myself completely. There is some of my behavior that occured in the past and recently that I was unable to explain before. Also as you noticed (or not, since some happened in private) I have worsened, and I still have no clue how much deeper I will fall in the pit. I knew this would happen for over 2 years, however, although I was convinced it would have happened over a year ago. Anyway I will keep this for another topic so I do not need to re-explain everything over and over.

Title: Re: Farewell
Post by: imo_inx on September 23, 2011, 08:42:32 am

Glad your back, Me and Spy were sad...